I Miss This Thing....

I miss blogging.  I miss writing posts daily about how I'm feeling, what I'm struggling with, my successes.  I miss reading what everyone else is doing and dealing with, their successes.  Blogging helped me to focus, helped me to get through, helped me get where I wanted to get, helped me be where I wanted to be.

But it took up a lot of my time, and I don't seem to have that time now.  Training for marathon #2 takes a lot of time, along with work, of course, and having a rough summer with unexplained daily chronic headaches, tests, doctors appointments.  It's all been a little overwhelming.

   

#WYCWYC Thanks for Reminding Me!

I have once again been reminded that it's not always about the long run, the hour workout at the gym, etc.  Anything you do throughout the day is activity and is better than nothing at all.

Thanks, Roni, for reminding me.

http://ronisweigh.com/2013/09/the-wycwyc-challenge.html

So I am inspired now to just try every day to add some little bit of activity here and there.  I have been suffering with migraine headaches since the first week of June. It had really taken a toll on me.  I was tired, and struggling to follow a healthy lifestyle, and although I am starting to feel better and have managed to continue marathon training, my heart is only half in it.    But I feel like I'm on my way.  Thanks to a lot of wonderful bloggers out there who have inspired me to just keep moving, I think it's all coming together.

Begins Again Today - One Step In the Right Direction

Been a long, difficult summer, full of migraine headaches with no apparent reason but hopefully, we're on the road to feeling better with a combination of a few medications that seem to be helping to control the headaches.

In the meantime, I realize that I absolutely HAVE NOT been tracking what I eat.  I have not been binge eating or overeating, have not been eating cake, candy and ice cream every day, but I've let go a lot of my healthy eating habits, and today I'm taking one big step in the right direction to gain control once again.  I'm over my goal weight by about 7 pounds AND IT IS NOT GOING TO STAY!

So today is the day.  I woke up this morning and just decided it's time.  Stop procrastinating.  Stop using the migraines as an excuse.  Just Do It!

Just get back from a short run.  I'm going to hit the showers, throw some shorts on and my "Just Do It"
t-shirt  as a reminder and get this day started.

One day at a time, one meal at a time, one healthy choice at a time.  I am going to turn this thing around!

Still here...just quietly

So I've been kind of taking a break from blogging.  It's been kind of a lousy summer for me.   I've been battling with headaches/migraines since the first week in June.  Been on antibiotics, steroids, antibiotics, and now found a new doctor who has me on a headache/migraine medicine and muscle relaxer.  She believes they may be tension headaches.

So because I sit in front of the computer all day long for work, it becomes a struggle to look at the computer screen any longer when my work is done.  Hopefully, this will resolve soon.  Once I'm feeling better, I hope to get back to blogging more often.

For now, I'm just reading all my favorites.

Comfort Zone Breakouts

Not adding any fluff to this post.  No time to drag it out, but wanted to get this post written while I had a minute.

Body Image has ALWAYS ALWAYS ALWAYS been an issue for me.  Even now after maintaining my goal weight for four years, it's still an issue with me.

And as a runner, I see many other women/girls out there running, of all ages, and admire all those that are running on these hot days clad in what I call "shortie shorts" and a sports bra.  For me, that was just not in the cards....or so I thought.   It had always been longer running shorts and running shirts with some sort of sleeve.

Slowly, I started to change.  First came the sleeves.  These summer runs are hot, humid.  I decided I didn't care about showing the flabby arms while I ran.  So in came the sleeveless, tank type running shirts.  Oh, my gosh, so much better!

Then I went shopping one day last year for some new running shorts and came across a pair of "shortie" compression shorts.  Me?  I don't think so, but tried them on anyway.  Not so bad.  I still was not convinced that I could wear them out in public but I bouth them, and eventually, I got up the nerve to wear them out running.  I was still self-conscious about it.  I may have lost 75 pounds, but the top of my legs still have a lot of "jiggle" hanging around.  Then I realized that no one was really analyzing that while I ran past them, and if they were, that's their problem.  These shorts are comfortable and cooler!

Now, the last remaining barrier, the sports bra.  Of course, I have sports bras, but would never wear it without an additional running shirt over it.  But why?  There are certainly plenty of women out there with similar body shapes as mine who are.  Why do I have such a problem with it?  Body image.  It's been a problem since I was a child.  Again, even though I have lost the weight, I still have not lost that feeling that I needed to hide my flaws.  But everyone has flaws.

Yesterday, I took a baby step in right direction.  It was not a big step, but one in the right direction.  I had just returned from a run and had already taken off the top shirt, trying to cool off before hitting the showers.  But I wanted to check out the garden before I did that.  I headed right out the back door, belly in the sunlight, and had not a care that all the neighbors would see me out there.    WHO IS THIS PERSON?!!

Will I take another step in that same direction and actually free myself of that fear, go for a run with my belly showing?  Absolutely, although maybe some tummy toning work first.   Might be a reason to get me back to the gym and add it into a strength training routine.

A new goal has been set.