Where Am I?

It's here again....Friday.  For me, the busiest day of the week.  It's also the day before my meeting/weigh-in, and you know what?  I have absolutely no clue what to expect on that scale tomorrow.  I HAVE NOT tracked.  I don't think I've been totally out of control in what I've been eating, but honestly, I haven't a clue.  I have always been a big tracker, but just .... I don't know what's wrong, just haven't.  No excuses, just haven't.

Secondly, I've always been one to get on the scale during the week to monitor how I'm doing...and again, I haven't.  Why?  I don't know.  Just haven't.  Is it fear?  Maybe, maybe not.  Laziness?  Possibly.  I think I've had an all right week.  Got a couple good runs in.  Not really eating too much out of the boundaries I try to keep for myself, although the weekend is always a rough one for me.  I can tell you that I HAVE NOT yet gotten back to drinking water, water, water.  Why?  What's wrong?  Why am I struggling to do what has been so natural for me up to this point?

So the question is do I get on that scale today or just hang on and wait until tomorrow at my meeting?  I'm not one for "surprises" on the scale, so I'm not sure what I'll do as far as the scale is concerned, but I do know that if I want to reach my "new goals", I better get this under control and quick!    Right now, I just feel like I'm wandering around, clueless as to what direction I'm heading.

So as of this morning, the tracker is back!  Everything, every single bite.  Once I get that good habit back, I'll feel like I'm heading in the right direction.